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* Wednesday, December 28, 2005 *
"They told me I was mistaken, infatuated, and I was afraid to trust my hunches. Now I am ready" ~ Hikaru Utada
Current Song: Hikaru Utada - Exodus '04
Current Mood: Sad
I was in a wonderful mood yesterday and I couldn't think of a bloody thing to write, now I'm miserable and I want to type in large angry capital letters and what not.
So I turned my kyute blog into an angst outlet! Exactly what I said I wouldn't do >.< I should probably reopen my livejournal and make it "friends only" because I don't know who's reading this mocking my poor self.
Despite a bunch of minor set backs, I have wonderful plans to make tasty lasagna... I just need to focus on that! I hope Safeway sells lasagna pans >.< I don't fancy going halfway across the city for it.
*Sigh* I don't know why I always feel like the one who fucks up...I don't think I do anything wrong...>.<>.<>.<
I feel better already though, just getting this out~ I really do need a paper journal though because I have so much more to say, it's just private.
Also, I need to learn to stop taking every kind gesture that comes in my direction to have some kind of significance, I keep getting shot down. It's like I sabotage my own happiness.
On the bright side, I rekindled some old friendships~ With chocolate, Spiffy and Will~ Well, chocolate didn't ever really leave me, but now I appreciate the endorphins it gives me~ Spiff and Will I just randomly stopped talking to over the summer, but in my loneliness I started talking to them again, and that happies me. Also, a new record, I liked my body for a total of one day. Maybe next week I'll like it for two days.
*In the future* I feel better now, I sort of wrote this and became happier again. So yeah... *shrugs*
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