Somewhere between a panda and a kitty...

Posted by Amanda at 4:37 PM

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Eat it BROCK!

Current Music: The tetris music in my head~
Current Mood: Victorious~

Today in Cell Phone Tetris - High Score of 30417

It was REALLY hard in the end >.< But I beat Brock's measely 13000 something points~

I sleep now~

Posted by Amanda at 1:42 AM

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* Sunday, February 13, 2005 *

I'm going to China~

Current Song: Orange Range - Kirikirimai
Current Mood: Bestest mood EVER!

I found out my application to go to China was accepted! Only 22 people in all of Alberta are accepted. I also just found out that I have 1000$ in bonds that I can use to go to China~ Yay~

I have also increased my manga collection this week~

-HanaKimi vol. 2 and 3
-Crescent Moon vol. 3
-Hana Yori Dango vol. 10

I also purchased a kyute shirt, an awesome sweater, a sexy jacket, and two pairs of fabulous socks~

Today Lance bought me an Annabelle doll based from the comic Nightmares and Fairytales...and then he ordered the whole set (in singular comic form, I already own the graphic novel...but I missed out on all the pretty covers).

What else? Oh, I bought a phone strap and some bells for the wallet bag (which is now official since it's been accessorized).

I think that's all...everything else isn't quite as exciting.

I should do my essay~ Bai~

Posted by Amanda at 8:12 PM

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* Friday, February 04, 2005 *

Quick change of plans ^^;;

Current Song: Nothing, for I should sleep soon~
Current Mood: Excited!

I'm sorry Brenna, I'm going to be late for Gargoyles party maybe ^^

Click this link to find out why~

Right after work on saturday, Denby and I hope to quickly zip over there and try at a fun chance to get ourselves in a video game~ It only goes until 5, so I can be back in time for Gargoyle goodness~ Or just go on without me, I can borrow it sometime. Gargoyles is around forever...but how often do you have the chance to be in a video game? Hahaha, it's funny because if you make it, they take your head and not your voice so you'll be watching your face with someone else's voice.

In less exciting news, I'm going to ruin my chinese skit tomorrow with horrible chinese skills. That's all~ Night~

Posted by Amanda at 1:47 AM

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* Wednesday, February 02, 2005 *

That turtle hermit life LOOKS really damned good right now...

Current Song: The blank hissing sound of my stupid head.
Current Mood: Feeling pretty fucking shitty.

I need a goddamned transcript...I don't know how long those take to process *sob* If I don't get one...I can't go to China @.@ *sob*

*sighs* Today keeps getting worse and worse.

Posted by Amanda at 9:32 PM

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All by myself~

Current Song: MINMI: Ai no Mi
Current Mood: Starting to feel like I've been at school for 9 hours.

God today sucks. This past month has sucked, but today in particular.

I slept in and had 10 minutes to get ready and catch the bus. I didn't bring a lunch due to the latter. I suck at Chinese and becoming more and more increasingly aware of such everyday. I'm stuck here for nearly 12 hours (including the bus ride). Lance missed the bus, so now I'm stuck on campus alone after dark, not to mention that I was very excited to show him around. I even wrote him a poem today (bored in english class, I sort of like it, so I think I'll use it for my upcoming poem analysis essay...poems definitely put the "anal" in analysis)...GAWD! I wanna go home >.< Eat real food and chocolate and get in the comfiest of clothing.

OH OH and to top everything off...NO ALIAS TONIGHT. What's up with that? Oh and I found out I have a Japanese midterm to keep my Anthropology midterm company on monday...I'm just going to fail that too I figure...my skills are not nearly good enough and I feel like I haven't enough time to study it all >.< I actually CAN'T wait for Monday...SO IT'LL BE BLOODY OVER! Then all I have to do is write my essay. I wish my essay could consist solely of Haikus. It'll be something like this:

Sex Sex Sex Sex Sex
Punch poetry in the face
Poem about love

Punch poetry in the face is my thesis somehow. Sex because that's all my english prof. talks about and love poetry so at least I'm slightly on topic. Teh_end.

Hmmm...I figure that's all. I should consider trekking my body over to Tory Lecture for some fun Anthro movie goodness. I've decided that I'll just stick around for both movies. That was I can go home early on friday to study and get errands done.

Posted by Amanda at 4:18 PM

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Apparently I'm an heiress...

Current Song: Miyavi: Coo Quack Cluck~
Current Mood: Happy and sleepy...

So yes...by heiress, I mean I've inherited my dad collections of spoons. I plan on enjoying my inheritance to it's fullest by hanging them in Lance's and mine's house~ You can really tell that my mom is trying to purge my dad out of her life when she gave my new spoon collection. Maybe one day it'll be worth millions and she'll kick herself~

I'm feeling better btw.

Today I purchased some new shoes. Basically the EXACT same shoes I already own. It's perfect because I really hate the search for new shoes since I'm very very picky. *prances in fancy new white/pink/red shoes that don't smell like old tempura*

Old french satires make me happy, specifically Candide. I just find it so captivating! I don't know why. I think it's the simplicity of it all with strong angry complex undertones! Though not as angry as Johnathan Swift...no one can ever be that angry.

Well, I should sleep~ I got chinese done and absolutely NO anthro...go me! I'll be furiously attempting to study at the Gargoyles-a-thon. It's been like 200000 years since I've seen Gargoyles. I hope it's as good as I remember it to be. Well, if you think about it, by releasing on DVD...they have to aim it to the old audience who is now like 19 - 20 because the current age-appropriate audience is too young to remember it. I don't know...too sleepy...don't feel like finishing thoughts anymore...

I sleep now! *passes out*

Posted by Amanda at 1:40 AM

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* Tuesday, February 01, 2005 *

A rare thoughtful moment...

Current Song: Miyavi: POP is dead~
Current Mood: Thoughtful *points to title*

I think I made a new friend and it makes me happy. I don't know though, he seems like the kind of bloke who is only interested in aquaintances. I'm groovy with that, but I really like having close friends~

Speaking of close friends, I don't really know what I'm doing anymore. I haven't felt this bloody insecure in a long time. I've forgotten how to talk to some of them magically. Maybe I'm sick of feeling stupid...my confidence sure has taken a beating in the past few monthes. Without my confidence, I'm sort of left with nothing except for shallow wit (I think people laugh at me most of the time...@.@) . I figure I won't worry about it anymore.

Actually, one thing I want to get off my chest is this bloody awful feeling of not knowing where you stand on terms of friendship. It's like you're on the outside looking in and only briefly are you invited to enter the circle. Well, I always used to be the one who slowly cut people off in my life...but I'm starting to think that it happened to me, and it really hurts. I feel awful. I can't change anything now (since I don't really like those people and fixing would involve talking to them...) but I think next time, I'll handle the situation differently.

I have this awful memory in my life of the first time I was ever rejected. I was always the girl who made a friend with one person and sort of clung to them until I eventually became comfortable enough to meet other people. Well, I met one girl (I was like 7 or 8 or something) and we became friends. The next day the girl's best friend joined us and she didn't like me. I didn't know that so I was tagging along with them, unaware that they were trying to escape me. Finally the girl just said "What's your problem?". I became a loner after that for a while. Well, I feel like that right now. I feel like I'm bothering people and I just want to let them be before it blows up in my face without actually confronting anyone. Stupid I know and I just find myself unable to follow my own advice...

This whole thing is bound to end in an unpleasant way (for myself, the other party doesn't care I don't think).

On the bright side, this experience in a whole makes me feel closer to the friends that stuck with me for so long and HAVEN'T gotten sick of me~ I shall name them all so they feel special (sorry if I miss some names, but I'm only really naming high school friends...^^): Lance, Brock, Brenna, Chris, Ven, and Leslie~

In Other News:

I stumbled upon my most hated-person-person-the-world's LJ...and now I know that that she's 120lbs and wants to be 115lbs because she thinks she's fat...This brought on WORLD'S OF ANGRY HATE and now I want to be better than her and my new goal is to lose 15lbs. Yup yup, that goal WILL NOT CHANGE! Stupid competitive me. I think I'll do it the old school weight watcher way since it's the only way I know how. *shrugs*

Studying is going bad...damn my short attention span...I don't know what's wrong with me. I just can't focus >.< Even in class. It's not ADD, I don't think one can just GET ADD out of the blue...maybe they can...but that's not important.

Anyways, this is an obvious cry of help to myself. I think it's time for some self-improvement~ Less chocolate and more studying! Doesn't sound like fun so maybe I'll try to throw some DDR in there~

I don't think there's much else to say~ I should probably sleep now. School tomorrow and much fun chinese skit-ness ahead~ I hope I can learn my part on time... I just feel so overwhelmed right now >.< I'm such a university failure...but my fees are paid so I'm stuck there!

Bonne Nuit~ (I think "nuit" is feminin...anyways, my interest in french has been resparked, so I'm thinking of taking it again~)

Posted by Amanda at 1:22 AM

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