Monday, April 26, 2004 -- 1:20:48 AM

Holy late update Batman!
Music: Sam Robert's - Where have all the good people gone?
Mood: Blaaaaahhhhh

So yeah I didn't forget the internet and run off with a woman after realizing that I was extremely gay, and whoever started that horrible rumor shouldn‘t spy on me anymore. Now what actually happened was that my anti virus program died/expired and it failed to tell me, so it resulted in my computer being hacked into viciously, and rampaged. Eventually Telus phoned and threatened to disconnect our internet if we continued to let hackers use our IP address to send Spam to millions of innocent people! Oh how evil my computer is.
None the less, it is all fixed now (we neutered it) and all is better (for everyone but the disabled computer).
Moving along though, I think that I have contracted a horrible sickness, I have had a fever for days now and other bad things are happening, so after a long time of prodding by, of all people, my sister I am going to the doctor tomorrow to get fixed (not like my computer though). Also I think a hair appointment is necessary, what's the occasion? Well I have had a particularly bad week at work, what with book off's and late late shifts. And a not very comforting week, what with Aleks being a busy busy polish man. Also I have had a blackmailing photo taking week, what with Jay and his digital camera.
Thus pampering is in order. All who wish to come should join, that invitation being for Brenna, cause it's impossible to get a hold of her.
Stupid women~
Moving along, I ran off to the my boyfriends cabin a few weeks ago, that was a fun drunk and rather good time. Since then I have working allot, seen a god awful amount of movies, molested a good number of people, and help chain name brand shopping stores gain money by buying a fantastic amount of clothes. Europe is rather soon and I don't believe that in anyway I am prepared. So I figure that I should just buy lot's of pretty things and stuff them in a bag at the last minute thus a good European time will be had.
However boring this post is it is rapidly coming to an end, I blame everything entirely of the sickness I have contracted. Whatever it may be.
As for Bush, his idiotic rambling's will be on my next post.

Saturday, April 03, 2004 -- 5:48:39 PM

So I'm the geek who does the quizes....
Music: D12 - My Band
Mood: In a happy place (and about to use the phone)

I figured I should know how geek I am, frankley I'm good with this, It's Drew she's awesome. but this is a pic for her form Poison Ivy, a movie she was very scary in, and scarred me at an early age.

You are 23% geek
OK, so maybe you ain't a geek. You do, at least, show a bit of interest in the world around you. Either that, or you have enough of a sense of humor to pick some of the sillier answers on the test. Regardless, you're probably a pretty nifty, well-rounded person who gets along fine with people and can chat with just about anyone without fear of looking stupid or foolish or overly concerned with minutiae. God, I hate you.

Take the Polygeek Quiz at

The result's of this quiz made me cry for a little while, but I figured since you know it's really true that i'd post it.

Who will you be stuck with at end of time? by chi_a_baidh
Your name is
Your sex is
Your favorite color is
You are stuck there becauseyou murdered everyone else
For _____ years88
He/She will think you arebeautiful
You willrun far, far away
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

This is a very true test, the only sad part is that my personallity is so very low. But really you all know me, this is most likely truer then I want to admidt.

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a6
your best quality isyoure hot but modest about it
your worst quality isyou need what you cant have
this is becauselifes a bitch
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

Since I love my own hair, I figured my sexy trait should be it. Cause I love it, everyone else should. You know.

What Makes You Sexy? by eva71
Sexy Body Part IsYour Hair
Special Talents AreGiving The Rub Down
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

Monday, March 22, 2004 -- 1:27:11 PM

Go now!
Music: A perfect Circle - Three Libra's
Mood: Nerdy

I want everyone to go here! Cause it has dancing Lion's. I think that out of everyone in the movie thing I al the people on the Lion Tour bus, Wheee.
Bush Quote: "I understand small business growth. I was one." - New York Daily News; Febuary 19, 2000

-- 2:06:46 AM

Being Sad Kind of Sucks.....
Music: Texas - Put Your Arms Around Me (Autumn Breeze Mix)
Mood: Not very happy....

This has been a mood fluctuation day, that's for sure. And it's not PMS for all those men out there thinking "Women are so testy during 'that time'" Stupid men. Stupid women. I think with those two thought's that it has been decided that I think that people in general are stupid, and I just don't like them right now. No, not just one or two in particularly (although I think everyone knows who they are) I'm am actually just sick of people right now. I'm in 'that' mood where one or two people seem to set the standard for everyone and your like, piss off the all of you.
Okay, well to explain a little bit the beginning of my day was the standard issue for a day-off. Sleep in, breakfast with family, then I cleaning reluctantly, went to sneak off to sleep. You know, that sort of morning. Then I rang Ben who arranged with me a time for out dinner meeting tonight. Called James, she was all too happy to join in on the fun. Date for three arranged for 7:00, plans set and ready all things going pretty well.
Dinner; good times with Ben and James. As always, much fun imagery and kinky fun stories and threats. Then I drove the lad's home cause of work and school in the morning. So as planned when I got home I phoned up some of my guy buds cause we had arranged to do something earlier.
Phoned Al, got the voice mail. Thought 'might be on phone', so I rang Jay and talked to him, he reported that they are at a bar or something chilling and that we should go and meet them, as per arranged. I asked who and all, and it was the same crew I went to the movie with yesterday. So like Al, some girl (who is kind of skanky but nice...), Sara (grrrr), her BF, John and them.
Sounded alright with me, we could chill out have a good time, and the like. So I said I'll try Al again and rang him, got the voice mail, gave it five still got the voice mail. Phone Jay and said I thought Al's phone was off, he said he'd call me back after trying Sara.
He called back, was all like 'Oh there at John's place now' That's not a problem for me, I hang out with John and asked if we were going over there. Then he's like, 'But Sara's going to leave if you come over'.
My first thought, 'Hello we're all in grade 7 here'. Then I'm saying what did she tell you that or something? And he's like no, she yelled it when Al said that Coleen was coming over. Ouch.
So I'm all 'Um alright then, that would make things uncomfortable, did he (Al) you know say anything to that?' Jay pauses then is like 'you know he doesn't have any balls when it comes to that sort of thing'. Ouch, ouch.
So I just said whatever have a good time with Sara, hope she has a good time with my boyfriend, I know she certainly will try.
Fuck, honestly what am I doing? I'm not suppose to be the girl with the feelings that get hurt. I did enough of that already, God I'm not suppose to have feelings like this. I do though, it honestly hurts like being fucking slapped in the face. I'm thinking what am I the other girl or what, am I just a good ride or something. Why do I do this to myself?
Even despite being told by practically everyone that he would never do anything with her again, I can’t convince myself of that, cause what kind of guy who wouldn't cheat would not say anything to even defend his actual girlfriend when some shit like that's said?
Blah blah blah, I hate using my Blog as a bitch a Blog, but there's no one who wants to talk to me now. So I might as well write to myself.

Thursday, March 18, 2004 -- 3:52:18 AM

Quizes and the Angry Female Stuff
Music: Fight Club - Psyco Boy Jack
Mood: Rather Pissed Off, and Have Been Bitching about it for a while

First off all Due to Brenna's prompting I have taken was is dubbed the truest personality test ever, and I have relized that I am a 18 year old repressed, sexually frustrated girl, with a nice personality. No shit Sherlock (well maybe not the nice stuff).
Go, and with lust and of course Doom in your hearts of hearts (In Brenna's case one of Gold) and see what I am, really, none of this is the 'I've been hiding it inside all this time, I'm really a clone crap' you all know and love. This is the real me.

And cause everyone else is doing it *jumps off bridge* and um.... this:
The Mad Lib of Doom!!
I _____ Coleen.
I think Coleen should fucking _______!
Coleen needs _______.
I want to ______ Coleen.
When I think about Coleen I ______.
_____ reminds me of Coleen.
Without Coleen ______.
If Coleen had a penis _______.
If I had a penis Coleen _____.
Or if you are male: If I had a vagina Coleen ______.
Coleen is my _______.
_____ Coleen.
Something I loath about Coleen is ______.
Something I wovel about Coleen is ______.
When alone in a room with Coleen I would _______.
Coleen is very ______.
Coleen _______ a lot.
If Coleen was being chased by a spitting camel I would _______.
On a scale of 1-10..10 at the highest.............................Coleen is ______..........

Wednesday, March 17, 2004 -- 3:54:36 AM

The woes of a "Taken" woman...
Music: Mya - Case of the Ex
Mood: Irked (Angry once, not angry now, kind of pissed off but still in a decent mood = Irked)

To those of you still reading my silly little journal that is rarely updated to laziness and some distraction, here is a want-to-be rant. Want-to-be in the sense that I'm in too decent of a mood for it to be an angry rant, and a rant because it's me bitching about Ex's. Now I know that the small group of people who read this do not have the same problem as I do, and as far as I can see shall not experience it. Your so damn lucky....
So seriously though, just think of the position I'm in first, Girl (me) meets Boy (Aleks) though friends (to many to put in, and most of the names are spelt rather weird like) Girl takes and very good look at Boy and likes what She sees. Then after many outings Girl invites Friends and Boy out to Ringette fundraiser and Girl gets smashingly tipsy and hit's on Boy rather hardcore. Then, Boy confides in friends that He thinks Girl was hitting on him the other night, Friends smack Boy upside head and say 'haven't you seen it before that?'
Then for many weeks Boy and Girl flaunt, flirt, fondle and eventually Boy rather suddenly asks Girl out, and our story really begins. For there is this Other Girl (Sara) who in a very complicated mess, once dated Boy for quite a while and eventually left Boy for Another Boy who claimed He realized He loved Her. But that's another story with more capitalized gender specific words in it.
Now Girl is rather happy in a Bambi twiterpaided way, and Boy is as well and it is during this happy little cuddle faze where It begins. The Another Girls does her usual phone all the time, there is not an hour in the day where his phone does not go off with her god awful ring tone, He ignores it as per usual. However Other Girl has noticed something is array with Girl and Boy relationship, and decided to come over uninvited and thus witness Girl rather innocently Sitting with boy during movie. She explodes. She scowls. She tries blocker Us out of Her view. She storms around making a scene so that someone will pay attention to Her. Boy rather ashamed covers face in pillow and pillow into Girl. Girl is confused.
Eventually things progress into Other Girl pulling Girl aside and ask Girl to stop being too clingy with Boy (her boyfriend, unbeknown to Other Girl) until She leave's from the country (to Assuie land, all expensed paid by Her Boyfriend) because Girl makes her uncomfortable and Girl is being most rude.
Girl stutters in shock, Her mind thinking 'Shove off whore, your the one who left Him for another man and your only pissed cause you no longer have two boyfriends, and by the by I am dating Him'. However her body panic-froze nodded and went off to try and mentally beat her frustration into her other Friends.
It doesn't end there see that was only when Other Girl knew Girl and Boy weren't dating. Nope, there is then confronting in person and on MSN there are phone calls then the whole possessive trying to monopolize His moves, and the talking behind the back. And of all people to talk to Other Girl purposely talks to mutual friends so of course Girl will find out.
Anger time.
Now Girl doesn't know what to do, she is lost and often takes Boy's friends out to movies and the like cause Boy is taken by Girl in a mean and rather possessives fashion (Que inner Coleen beating life size Sara Voodoo doll).
That's what I did tonight anyways, Jay and I saw Lost In Translation and were amused to be reminded of what Kris and Jen's relationship is like, long periods of silence and awkward conversation. But none the less a good movie, then I phoned Aleks cause I thought Sara might be done with him and he came over to Jay's and this is why this post isn't as angry as it should of been, I had anger in me but it withered away.
More later sleep now.
Bush Quote: "Well, I think if you say you're going to do something and don't do it, that's trustworthiness." - CNN online chat; August 20, 2000.

Friday, March 12, 2004 -- 9:06:51 PM

This post isn't done
Music: Courtney Love - Mono
Mood: Ahhhh ha ha ha hhhaaaa *sigh*

Sunday, March 07, 2004 -- 7:19:04 AM

Well no shit
Music: Underworld - Rev 2220
Mood: No surprised, kinda tired

stone heart
Heart of Stone

What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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Ahhh well as long at the world isn;t try to pull a fast one on me and say I have a heart of anything else, then I'm good. All else set aside I'm rather perky for waking up at 6:30, that very well may be cause this is the only day in god know's how long I haven't staying out at Jay's house till 2 in the morning. Ah sleep can be god, but anyways i must be off to work. *Poof*