Go now!
Music: A perfect Circle - Three Libra's
Mood: Nerdy




I want everyone to go here! Cause it has dancing Lion's. I think that out of everyone in the movie thing I al the people on the Lion Tour bus, Wheee.
Bush Quote: "I understand small business growth. I was one." - New York Daily News; Febuary 19, 2000

Being Sad Kind of Sucks.....
Music: Texas - Put Your Arms Around Me (Autumn Breeze Mix)
Mood: Not very happy....


This has been a mood fluctuation day, that's for sure. And it's not PMS for all those men out there thinking "Women are so testy during 'that time'" Stupid men. Stupid women. I think with those two thought's that it has been decided that I think that people in general are stupid, and I just don't like them right now. No, not just one or two in particularly (although I think everyone knows who they are) I'm am actually just sick of people right now. I'm in 'that' mood where one or two people seem to set the standard for everyone and your like, piss off the all of you.
*Screams*
*Cries*
*Breaths*
Okay, well to explain a little bit the beginning of my day was the standard issue for a day-off. Sleep in, breakfast with family, then I cleaning reluctantly, went to sneak off to sleep. You know, that sort of morning. Then I rang Ben who arranged with me a time for out dinner meeting tonight. Called James, she was all too happy to join in on the fun. Date for three arranged for 7:00, plans set and ready all things going pretty well.
Dinner; good times with Ben and James. As always, much fun imagery and kinky fun stories and threats. Then I drove the lad's home cause of work and school in the morning. So as planned when I got home I phoned up some of my guy buds cause we had arranged to do something earlier.
Phoned Al, got the voice mail. Thought 'might be on phone', so I rang Jay and talked to him, he reported that they are at a bar or something chilling and that we should go and meet them, as per arranged. I asked who and all, and it was the same crew I went to the movie with yesterday. So like Al, some girl (who is kind of skanky but nice...), Sara (grrrr), her BF, John and them.
Sounded alright with me, we could chill out have a good time, and the like. So I said I'll try Al again and rang him, got the voice mail, gave it five still got the voice mail. Phone Jay and said I thought Al's phone was off, he said he'd call me back after trying Sara.
He called back, was all like 'Oh there at John's place now' That's not a problem for me, I hang out with John and asked if we were going over there. Then he's like, 'But Sara's going to leave if you come over'.
My first thought, 'Hello we're all in grade 7 here'. Then I'm saying what did she tell you that or something? And he's like no, she yelled it when Al said that Coleen was coming over. Ouch.
So I'm all 'Um alright then, that would make things uncomfortable, did he (Al) you know say anything to that?' Jay pauses then is like 'you know he doesn't have any balls when it comes to that sort of thing'. Ouch, ouch.
So I just said whatever have a good time with Sara, hope she has a good time with my boyfriend, I know she certainly will try.
Fuck, honestly what am I doing? I'm not suppose to be the girl with the feelings that get hurt. I did enough of that already, God I'm not suppose to have feelings like this. I do though, it honestly hurts like being fucking slapped in the face. I'm thinking what am I the other girl or what, am I just a good ride or something. Why do I do this to myself?
Even despite being told by practically everyone that he would never do anything with her again, I can’t convince myself of that, cause what kind of guy who wouldn't cheat would not say anything to even defend his actual girlfriend when some shit like that's said?
Blah blah blah, I hate using my Blog as a bitch a Blog, but there's no one who wants to talk to me now. So I might as well write to myself.

Quizes and the Angry Female Stuff
Music: Fight Club - Psyco Boy Jack
Mood: Rather Pissed Off, and Have Been Bitching about it for a while




First off all Due to Brenna's prompting I have taken was is dubbed the truest personality test ever, and I have relized that I am a 18 year old repressed, sexually frustrated girl, with a nice personality. No shit Sherlock (well maybe not the nice stuff).
Go, and with lust and of course Doom in your hearts of hearts (In Brenna's case one of Gold) and see what I am, really, none of this is the 'I've been hiding it inside all this time, I'm really a clone crap' you all know and love. This is the real me.

And cause everyone else is doing it *jumps off bridge* and um.... this:
The Mad Lib of Doom!!
I _____ Coleen.
I think Coleen should fucking _______!
Coleen needs _______.
I want to ______ Coleen.
When I think about Coleen I ______.
_____ reminds me of Coleen.
Without Coleen ______.
If Coleen had a penis _______.
If I had a penis Coleen _____.
Or if you are male: If I had a vagina Coleen ______.
Coleen is my _______.
_____ Coleen.
Something I loath about Coleen is ______.
Something I wovel about Coleen is ______.
When alone in a room with Coleen I would _______.
Coleen is very ______.
Coleen _______ a lot.
If Coleen was being chased by a spitting camel I would _______.
On a scale of 1-10..10 at the highest.............................Coleen is ______..........

The woes of a "Taken" woman...
Music: Mya - Case of the Ex
Mood: Irked (Angry once, not angry now, kind of pissed off but still in a decent mood = Irked)




To those of you still reading my silly little journal that is rarely updated to laziness and some distraction, here is a want-to-be rant. Want-to-be in the sense that I'm in too decent of a mood for it to be an angry rant, and a rant because it's me bitching about Ex's. Now I know that the small group of people who read this do not have the same problem as I do, and as far as I can see shall not experience it. Your so damn lucky....
So seriously though, just think of the position I'm in first, Girl (me) meets Boy (Aleks) though friends (to many to put in, and most of the names are spelt rather weird like) Girl takes and very good look at Boy and likes what She sees. Then after many outings Girl invites Friends and Boy out to Ringette fundraiser and Girl gets smashingly tipsy and hit's on Boy rather hardcore. Then, Boy confides in friends that He thinks Girl was hitting on him the other night, Friends smack Boy upside head and say 'haven't you seen it before that?'
Then for many weeks Boy and Girl flaunt, flirt, fondle and eventually Boy rather suddenly asks Girl out, and our story really begins. For there is this Other Girl (Sara) who in a very complicated mess, once dated Boy for quite a while and eventually left Boy for Another Boy who claimed He realized He loved Her. But that's another story with more capitalized gender specific words in it.
Now Girl is rather happy in a Bambi twiterpaided way, and Boy is as well and it is during this happy little cuddle faze where It begins. The Another Girls does her usual phone all the time, there is not an hour in the day where his phone does not go off with her god awful ring tone, He ignores it as per usual. However Other Girl has noticed something is array with Girl and Boy relationship, and decided to come over uninvited and thus witness Girl rather innocently Sitting with boy during movie. She explodes. She scowls. She tries blocker Us out of Her view. She storms around making a scene so that someone will pay attention to Her. Boy rather ashamed covers face in pillow and pillow into Girl. Girl is confused.
Eventually things progress into Other Girl pulling Girl aside and ask Girl to stop being too clingy with Boy (her boyfriend, unbeknown to Other Girl) until She leave's from the country (to Assuie land, all expensed paid by Her Boyfriend) because Girl makes her uncomfortable and Girl is being most rude.
Girl stutters in shock, Her mind thinking 'Shove off whore, your the one who left Him for another man and your only pissed cause you no longer have two boyfriends, and by the by I am dating Him'. However her body panic-froze nodded and went off to try and mentally beat her frustration into her other Friends.
It doesn't end there see that was only when Other Girl knew Girl and Boy weren't dating. Nope, there is then confronting in person and on MSN there are phone calls then the whole possessive trying to monopolize His moves, and the talking behind the back. And of all people to talk to Other Girl purposely talks to mutual friends so of course Girl will find out.
Anger time.
Now Girl doesn't know what to do, she is lost and often takes Boy's friends out to movies and the like cause Boy is taken by Girl in a mean and rather possessives fashion (Que inner Coleen beating life size Sara Voodoo doll).
That's what I did tonight anyways, Jay and I saw Lost In Translation and were amused to be reminded of what Kris and Jen's relationship is like, long periods of silence and awkward conversation. But none the less a good movie, then I phoned Aleks cause I thought Sara might be done with him and he came over to Jay's and this is why this post isn't as angry as it should of been, I had anger in me but it withered away.
More later sleep now.
Bush Quote: "Well, I think if you say you're going to do something and don't do it, that's trustworthiness." - CNN online chat; August 20, 2000.

This post isn't done
Music: Courtney Love - Mono
Mood: Ahhhh ha ha ha hhhaaaa *sigh*

Well no shit
Music: Underworld - Rev 2220
Mood: No surprised, kinda tired





Heart of Stone


What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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Ahhh well as long at the world isn;t try to pull a fast one on me and say I have a heart of anything else, then I'm good. All else set aside I'm rather perky for waking up at 6:30, that very well may be cause this is the only day in god know's how long I haven't staying out at Jay's house till 2 in the morning. Ah sleep can be god, but anyways i must be off to work. *Poof*

No longer the innocent Virgin, just a Virgin.
Music: The Darkness - Growing On Me
Mood: Traumatized




Being the only Virgin in a group of allot of people usually means that everyone there finds it there obligation to tell you about sex. Cause you've never had it, and if they don't find there sex life interesting enough they instead decided to give you sex advised they them selves wish they would use.
So I'll enlighten everyone as to the advised given;
First off guy's can find sex very boring but get into such a grove with doing it everyday that it become a task almost, so instead kink should be thrown in.
Secondly Virgin + Virgin = Bad times on all parties behalf’s, but more so for poor, poor girl.
Then there the overly stressed point that sex ruins relationships 9 out of 10 times, makes people possessive, moody and mostly bitchy people who are no fun to be around in general and make all your friends hate you.
Fuck.
After you move off some of the fantastic sex advise you get into the stories about everyone’s sexual experiences. Why do I want to hear this? I don't! But everyone assumes I do.
There's the overly disturbing 'my first time was in the shower, when I was on my period' one, *Coleen dies from horrible shiver* the 'one night stand' that led onto more one night stands and a trial of hurt and emotionally disturbed girls all over the city. Then of course the 'I slept with a dirty girl and had to get a needle stuck up me penis after during the STD's test' and always the favourite 'and then when you start getting it on the guy's suddenly looking for the anal sex, and one days you'll be getting a massage and it's like whoa!'.
I could be no more disturbed.
I do have moral by they way and think that sex + Coleen are lot likely to happen anytime soon. But besides that mostly obvious point I have to go and nap now cause I work twice tonight. Kill. Me. Now.

Bush Quote: "The California crunch really is the result of not enough power-generating plants and then not enough power to power the power of generating plants." - Interview with the New York Times; January 14, 2001